Thursday, January 18, 2007

These coming few months

Well, hav another 2 weeks of school and 2 weeks of exam, then VOLA FREEDOM!




Come to think of it, 3 years really flew by me without really being noticed. I feel old, weak and fragile, but maybe its only me =\ damn i hate my study life. hahaha perhaps i'll blog in another entry abt me missing my school life, but as of now, i would really love to juz finish my study and have sometime to myself and someone special.





Went for NAPFA a couple of days back and guess wad? Even without running or any form of training, still managed to clock 9.13minutes for 2.4 and got an overall gold =)) darn proud of myself! My mentor, a lecturer who is around the age of 40 is really cute (& sweet perhaps), he ran behind me for the first 4 rounds and eventually HE CAUGHT UP! Wah, i was like dead tired and breathless liao, he still run beside me to 'gek' me! But yah, thanks Mr Tham! this old man runs real fast!





Next up would be my exam! juz 2 weeks away and ending on the 14th of Feb! Darn Suay! Valentine day! But luckily its not on the 15th else i would hav pinned someone to the crucifix and hang them up there for 3 days! Hope i'll do well =) really need to enter a local university!


Really have no intention of leaving home for somewhere with no friends nor kins. Surely, life wouldn't be the same without YOU by my side. Think will probably miss you too much to concerntrate on any other stuff. sigh......





Went for my medical check up today, and gosh was it bad! it was so cold inside, i juz shivered all the way and i cant even think properly! It was much worst at the medical check up station where u have to topless and they would place some apparatus on ur chest to observe you heart beats and etc. I think perhaps i was shivering too much, when i asked the MO, "Sir, anything adnormal?". HE SAID YAH! and then printed like 3 pieces of paper full of my vital signs and etc! UBER SCARY!


The IQ test was worst! my brain and hands were simply not functioning well enough to coordinate! and wads worst? There was this set of basic maths and algebra qns, requirement = to finish 30+ (izzit?) qns within a ridculous amount of time like 15 or 20minutes! so you have to READ, THINK, CALCULATE, TYPE in answer within 40secs? its like OH MY GOODNESS! friends say that the IQ test is the definitive test to decide where are you going to posted to, so i guess its juz either a clerk or driver =(





i used to be looking forward to my NS, its like so FUN! i do feel the same now, juz not as strongly as i've thought i was. Perhaps its those years being psycho-ed as cadets....


but think the worst part of NS is that you know you cant be there for the one you love as often as you could before, like 5 out of the 7 days a week you spend in camp provided that you do not kana extra duty. Its like a physical and social barrier! Dread! :@ i think my enlistment is either MARCH which is shit close! or september.... either one, i'll still be serving 22 months.... loads to see, loads to learn, loads to deal with (emotionally) =(





gonna learn to miss you 71.4% of a week =(

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Sorry, i really don't know what can i do anymore

I'm Sorry, you deserve someone who is so much better. you deserve so much more, and i feel that i cant give you anything but pain...

I walked out not because I don't love you no more, but because i feel very guilty to spoil your nights over and over again...

I'm truely a bastard in disguise.

What can i do? How should i feel?
I'm so tired......
4nights with literally no slp ='(
and now, a broken heart.
Lifehouse - Take M...