Thursday, June 29, 2006

Pissed

im darn pissed............. very very pissed

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

A thursday entry.....

Alrite!!!! its thursday and im loving it!!! 1 more fagging day before the much awaited weekend! woohoo!!!

was at mass training yesterday and after 2 weeks not seeing all u peeps, i must say that the juniors now are darn F.I.T! jaw drops.... but wads worst was wen i climbed onto chin chong's back for a piggy back ride, he said that i was quite light.... *DEVASTATION*
FYI, chin chong = a VERY tall chap... 183+?

DAMN CHIN CHONG!!!! ROOOAARRRR.....!!!!
training darn shiong yst.... 200 for starting followed up by campus run thn gym... haven't really recovered from monday's session so was kinda aching upside down and inside out throughout yst. and before we're done.... another 110... my arms gave way @ 70! jasper who was right beside me faired no better... he went straight to the ground la! literally....

so anyway after briefing.... i thought everyone had forgotten abt my birthday thus sparing me from my ill-concede fate... but NOOOOOO..... next thing i know, i was dragged down by jeremy and ethan i think.... HOW NAIVE of me.... shldn't have sat beside anyone la!
and so this was my fate.....
DAMN U ALL!!!! wei long wasn't as lucky as me... he had something which looked like 'CUM' poured all over him... courtesy of jasper (u disgusting freak!) =P

-end of training-
headed to bukit timah market for dinner and no one wants to share sambal stingray with me =( sad..... so ended up having popiah *how pathetic*
so on the bus back home, i asked fiona wad i've asked geraldine before... wad is 'pu tao ya' (portugal in english).... her reply?
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"grape vine? grape tree?"
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wahhhh pengx! ur the same as geraldine la! except maybe to geraldine, the country 'turkey' in chinese = "hu ji gou' (turkey nation in direct translation) -.-" ... =)) buay tahan!
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yihan went for the s'pore idol 'wild card' show last nite. i was seriously trying hard *and i mean VERY hard* to imagine her being juz like the rest of those hysterical audiences (waving posters and screaming till their lungs burst and deflate!) *P
but anyway, was quite worried wen she didn't reply my sms-es.... so called her a few times and finally realised that she was watching 'Project Runway' and her hp was in silent mode.. -_-"
okkkk i've over-reacted but don't i reserve the right to be worried? =P hope u understand where u stand in my life. but, hurhurhur.... hope u get adducted by those KLK workers and sent back to india *smirks* *evil grins*!!!
getting awfully restless... gonna be awhile till i see u again =( cant wait for the week to be done! miss u tonnes my dear......
Love is not about loving a perfect person
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Loving an imperfect person perfectly...

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Nothing like a random Entry

I think i've a serious issue with mondays! its nothing but a ER XIN feeling! BUT ENDURE!!!! JUZ 4 more weeks of attachment to GO! -the count down begins
on a serious note.... this place shall be nothing more thn a distant memory to me after all this shit is done... have no idea will i be missing this place or not but as for now, i would like nothing more thn to spend time away.... LOTS of time away from this place!
monday seems to be this evil character in a novel that brings you nothing but pain... takes away your weekend and leaves you with a pile of document that needs editing before the week is done... thn the cycle continues.... how typical yah? ENOUGH of this!

Anyway to my dear FRIENDS!!!
To Francis and the henderson gang.... Though haven't been hanging out with you guys for sometime, i still think u guys are F**King hilarious! My dear francis, after so many years (actually only <3years)>Lex... thanks for being a great source of inspiration!
*Junsheng for being there for me whenever i need it... the best senior i can ever ask for! u've really made a difference in my life!
*Zhijian and Tristan for making me realise that WE choose what kind of route we'll walk.... "lu shi wo men ren zou(walk) cu lai de"...
*Bernard for being my motivation to train hard
*Jiaying for being this sweet junior....
*Geraldine for letting me know that im not the only one who has been hurt.....
*Ja'ime for making me the man I'm today... u know u deserve this credit partner!
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and many many more! thanks team! i've found my reason to continue walking the walk =))

Special Thanks to my sis MeL for just being someone i can CONFIDE in whenever im feeling dull =( hurhurhur go find a boyfriend soon my dear!

And Ying Bei Bei! Your just another important part of my life! an elder sister that i've never had the privilege of having....! thanks for all the things u've done for me!

Finally to that special someone.
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you've been the reason why i've looked forward to each and everyday.
no words can describe how grateful im...
no one can ever make me feel as loved...

you've been there for me, even when i've turned my back on my peeps and even the world.
Many hurdles we will have to face...
but it's never about winning.... its about the journey.... =)
in you i've found a reason....

a relationship is about growing... so grow together not apart FROM each other.
a better man i shall be =)

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

That Pact

Ok its offical!

I've lost the pact! BIG FCUK? SO WAD?!

A fossil watch isn't worth that much to keep me 2 days away from her! *ROOOAAARR*

That gurl also has a part to play in my DOWNFALL too! Early morning text me, "Miss Me Me ME? Cannot reply worx! BUHAHAHAHA"

and throughout the day kept on messaging and messaging! -Gek me-

and sad to say! i finally succumbed!
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but nonetheless, she's a sweet thing.... KNEW that i hav BO so went to get me a CK perfume! Bet tat burnt a hole in her instantly..... ='( aber touched my dear. i promise i'll treat u better.... just for tomorrow i mean :P !!!!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Monday..... AGAIN!

Its MONDAY...........AGAIN! gotta agree, this is gonna be a endless cycle for the next half of my life! *monday blues*

Made a pact with yihan ystday night while sending her over to her grandparent's place. "We shan't meet for the next 3 days" rational being 'Absence makes the heart fonder'...! Now i totally regret why i agree to that in the first place -.-" ARGH!!!!
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I'm not suppose to:
1) Call her..
2) Text Her..
3) Visit her friendster
4) Visit her blog
5) pop by her place.....!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

and that BITCH said i wouldn't last 2 days! i'll prove you WRONG my dear! and do get my FOSSIL Watch ready by the end of this 3 days worx! *smirks*
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our darling ying bei bei went for PLASTIC SURGERY on friday! isn't that cool or wad?! though its considered a small procedure (juz cutting a double eyelid), she's still the first peep that i know who has gone under the knife =))


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After:


still a little swollen though... but think she'll look great in another day or so from now =) so happy for you my dear! think i've to go for a full facial makeover! *determined*
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darn! still 2 more fagging hours in the office and training later!!! whee-o-whee!!!! i shall numb myself with lactic acid!!! I WILL SURVIVE!!!


we'll get there.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Flame War

Happily attached and for once, everything seem so right!

But im a thinker too... so i do fear of losing You.... to time... to impulses.... and all those little unseen hurdles yet laid before us. We'll get there


As for now... im devoting this entry to some peeps who have nothing better to do then to start a flame war on her blog..! to whoever you guys are.... regardless of rank nor seniority, please, if you have the guts to tag whatever u've tagged, please have the BALLS to leave your name along with it! Stop crapping around with names like 'Air Head' (yea only fc*king air in your bloody skulls....), 'Air Peeps' and 'anonymous'.... a bunch of ball-less cowards! Pls dun let me know its the doing of an SAF personnel.... (especially a Lieutanant) cos it juz goes to show what 9-10 months in OCS has taught you....
P.S I have nothing against OCS... im juz UTTERLY disgusted abt how a particular black sheep cos tarnish its reputation as a renowned military institute.

wad have i ever done with u guys? whats wrong with my smile? if ur not happy abt my smile, ur always welcomed to spend 3K on braces and enjoy the ulcers that comes along with it for 3 fcuked up years BEFORE u come and talk to me abt SMILES u bloody FaGg*rt.... 'fake smile' pui! i smile whenever and to whoever i like... since wen does smiling need to come under the comment or POV of others?






to someone out dere.... u dun look like someone who has very high EQ either....
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As quoted: "these people may come from branded schools, IQ level sure is HIGH, i guess, give them benefit of doubt, but their EQ level is sure LOW. they should really go and reflect on their actions and do something about it. "
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My EQ level is up to my family and peers to decide.... NOT YOU... and yesh even though i come from poly... @ least im certified the top 10% of my poly and still definitately more tactful thn to make a comment like the one i quoted from your blog.. its okk, shan't degrade myself to the same league so as to avoid engaging in such ridculous debates... =)

"Therefore, to Kel. A Thousand Apologies! Sorry once again! " = accepted
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Good Bye singles club...

Time 11.50pm tuesday 14/6/06

i've finally came clean with my feelings to you and for once i'm certain of what i want....

so now.....
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GOOD BYE SINGLEs CLUB!!!!

wahahahahahaha!!!! its a wonder, i came one whole round looking for something that is already right smack infront of my eyes...
you were there wen i needed comfort and no matter what, stood by my side

i'm so sorry for disappointing you time and time again but im grateful that we went the distance for each other!

thanks for being my pillar of support.. and now you mean so much more! thank God! for your guidance o Lord =) i'll cherish this relationship and most importantly....

I'll Cherish You =)

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Wednesday!!! Half way through!

Wednesday! half way through the week and still got lots not done....

1. KBS not done
2. Project incomplete
3. Life not right
4. Love not there
5. Money no have

Damn the Trepidation!!! so damn pissed off by my 'over sensitivity'!!! Argh!
im rather bothered by some stuff happening in my life now... my heart skipped a beat yesterday night while giving tution to junkang. P.S junkang = my tutee and no valarie he is WAY too young for you!!

i was teaching him the difference between 'can' and 'could' wen that happened my whole face sunk man!
Junkang: "Kel, why ur face so...... black?"
Me : "nothing actually, i wish i 'could' understand my feelings now"

*sheesh* speaking about utilising every emotion to quote an example!

so went for to catch CARS yesterday with the guys and tt really cheered me up alot! Let me spoil the show a little bit for those who have yet to catch it =P *im evil*... HAHA!

gish of the movie? Life isn't always about winning.... Its more about the journey and the people we meet that will change our lives in the process..! *told you i'll spoil the show for u =P*

ms gan jiaying bring ur cousins to watch this man! way cute! i simply adore that little mexican speaking tire changing forklift! wahahaha! *shoot me pls*
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got home, prepared for work and started to feel the sting again *utterly detestable*
this is my prison... *8 to 5, mondays to fridays*

and so now sitting in the office blogging! wheeee whooo!!!
oh ya! was watching utube juz a moment ago and stumbled upon a singapore idol clip.... the NongNongAgo? that simply made my day man! darn hilarous!

dick's expression was simply classic! "That's a really nong Nong NOng NONg NONG version" gosh that guy (wadever his name is) looks like a blur cock up there. Better not comment too much cos i cant sing for Sh*t either =P

how i wish i've the courage to let u know man! Trepidations!

i'll let u know soon . . . its not always abt the outcome.... its more abt the journey

Monday, June 12, 2006

OFFICE!!!

Office looks like this........

Cold.... Quiet.... Unfriendly....

but...... JUST 6 more WEEKS to go go go!!!! muhahahahaha!

So anyway, managed to finish up half of May's KBS!!! So proud of myself! cant say so for samuel... tt @#%$! has been missing in action for the past 2 weeks and he has the cheek to tell me that he's in school doing OUR project wen i dun see ANY and i mean ANY progress.... think he probably spends the time *if he goes to sch @ all* sitting in the canteen with a bucket drooling over the business freshies.... that guy is simply incorrigible!!!


on a brighter note, taking off on thursday!! wheeeee!!! hope SOMEONE fails her TP so i M.O.C.K her!!! *smirks* *evil laughs*
and good luck man LC! get ur license and it'll be ur turn to drive me around! hurhurhur!!!!
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some random pics cos im utterly BORED in the office!!! the thought of tution later SO turns me off!!! argh!


love the sinner, hate the sin

Cross Road

something has been keeping me rather busy lately.... its but a thought, but this thought will ultimately lead me to so many places... so many new possibilities.... so many new experiences..

these past few months have actually been quite a roller coaster ride (emotional wise) with loads of ups and down, twists and turns and even loops after loops.... I've experienced how high love could bring you, only to have the whole world fall apart in just a matter of hours ....

i was that which others did not want to be.
i went where others feared to go, and did what others failed to do..
i asked of nothing from you who gave nothing, and reluctantly accepted the thoughts of eternal loneliness . . . . should i fail...
i have seen the the face of jealousy, felt the stinging cold of fear, and enjoyed the sweet taste of a moment's love....
i have cried, pained and hoped, but most of all i lived times others would say best forgotten.

others asked if i was ever frustrated, angry or cold.... i turned to them and said, "No, i've simply stopped chasing."

Quote, 'Whatever that doesn't break you, makes you stronger.'
I beg to differ....! Whatever that doesn't break you doesn't make you stronger.

It simply forces you to accept the fact....
No matter how ugly i can be

I've grown alot over the months and now i know what I want in Love....

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and one of it is not being afraid to Love...
thanks for making me realise what i've missed all this while =) wish you well....

i'll make a difference this time....

Friday, June 09, 2006

IACE

MASS Tired!

Actually skipped work for 2 days to pei HANA NOT SO DIVINE to IACE.... but its FUN FUN FUN! Finally got days off work to actually spend some quality time doing something thn staying at home to rot.... the ang mo chaps aren't as fun as the ICEP a few years back but the hongkies are GREAT!!! this guy philip actually resembles me *skinny and all* and freakishly cheesy man! BTH!!!

but enough of small talks and let the pics do all the TALKING!


tt guy in blue = philip and that chio bu bside him = usee (dunno how to spell) =P cant say so for the OTHER gurl beside usee.... *P


Showing off our BRIGHT red hands.....


she's a happy girl after a plain and an onion prata....

okok enough journalism for a nite... think i caught the flu bug.... wad a weakling yea? ha!!!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Office on Monday....

Time: 3.04pm

heading into the last 2 hours of work and still time seems to be crawling by!!! I've been really busy for the whole morning!

1) Completed my TOR and sent it to my supervisior for her perusal...
2) Started the first 8days of May's KBS (this is a killer man!) -eyes grow tired after browsing 500 emails
3) Lunch
4) Surf Friendster....

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5) Blog -cos i really dun hav anything to do and CANT BE BOTHERED with the KBS!

BRRRRAAAIIIINNNN DEAD! and its only monday..... weekdays are such a DRAG! come to think of it, life itself is already a drag!!!
I should be at the family chalet today la! but noooooooo ...... office! Work! Ethics! Responsibility!
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no wonder society is repressed...

Beh called me eariler in the morning... quite surprised though.... cos we haven't really been talking and hanging out these few week after she got back with her PRINCE of INDIA.... well quite inevitable actually, who wouldn't put someone they love over their friends? hahah

Not blaming you my dear! juz wana let u know.... dun just do things because you have to.... do things because it/they make you happy and its wad you really want / its something that you'll be happy with! -shall say this on behalf of 'hana banana wong im god', u have our blessing! =)
Oei hana, think u can reconsider that wedding ceremony @ the zoo for beh liao.... the one where he rides into the ceremony on an elephant.... -tarzan and jane =))

and congrats junjia for climbing outta that hole of urs!

CANT WAIT FOR 5!!! heading to the gym with the guys n poor juniors..... having common test.... Have something to tell those who are mugging away...... WHAT IS STUDYING? WHAT IS MUGGING TILL 3am?! WHAT IS COMMON TEST?! hurhurhurhur! *smirks*


actions speaks louder thn words... but no words thn action for f#$k?

Sunday, June 04, 2006

My Sunday!

Hi World!

Was suppose to wake hana up @ 8 this morning, so decided to play DOTA till like 7.50 thn wake her up or something.... But smart old me played till 6.50 and decided to laze on bed for awhile.... *I really dun hav to tell you wad happened next*

10+ .... CRAP! Frantically text her.... "Oh Shit, I juz woke up" HAHAHAA so sorry my dear!

But lucky for her, even being late for one whole hour late, she's only the third person @ the meeting place along with all her other girlfriends.. morale of the story = if/wen you date a group of gals, always set the meeting time @ least 1 hour in advance.... e.g suppose to be there at 5pm meet 4pm and etc etc.... *GALS CAN NEVER NEVER BE TRUSTED TO BE PUNCTUAL!* ~im speaking on behalf of the rest of my species.
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so that was the morning... snoozed till 3pm *i ought to be @ training! =(* lazed around till dinner and decided to pop by Jurong Point aka jp for my doze of civilization and found myself in a sea of kiddos.... there was this ULTRAMAN display at the open space juz infront of subway and the ultramen were like fighting with the 'monsters' and u can hear the kids going "FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!"

ladies and gentlemen, i think now you know where kids get their doze of VIOLENCE from... BET HANA BANANA watched truck loads of ultraman show wen she was young man!

coming to the POOR actors in those rubber suits....


i bet they muz be going like, "Oh man! I cant believe im being paid only 10bucks an hour for this crap man! Good thing i have this MASK over my thick skull! else..... oh shit! I SEE MY MUM! yecks!"

come to think of it..... i actually adored ultraman wen i was like 5 ! *sheesh* *fact flash*


so that aside....
next went down to ntuc to get something for me to chew on back @ the office for the coming week and i stumbled upon something that's kinda intimidating....



wad can they think of next? displaying the culprit's name and address on the board? -pictures included!

gosh! but its quite a good deterrance isn't it?!
SO KIDS.. Stay and school and be GOOD! it ain't good to be naughty yea!

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sian la! i feel darn jaded.... am i suppose to follow my heart or juz the brain? *feeling ambivalent*
It really feels like im living in a world where fact is fiction and fictions are still/but fictions... facts obscured from the naked eye and trepidation is all you'll feel wen you hav something 'smart' up ur sleeves....!

Guidance! Guidance!!!!!

never was.... never will be......
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